Not in Love...

I am not in love with you
Of this, I am completely sure
And yet, I compare each conversation
Each voice and laugh
And find them wanting…

I am not in love with you
Days can pass that we don’t speak
And I only think of you
In fleeting moments, idle hours
Hardly worth mentioning…

I am not in love with you
There are no butterflies
Dancing in my chest, fluttering in my belly
No great longing
To feel your body in mine

I am not in love with you
Of this I am completely sure
Yet why this feeling of relief
That you have passed by
Without touching
Without lips meeting….

Because I am not in love with you
Because it is safe
Because I am not in love with you
Never to touch you
Because I am not in love with you
Never to miss you too much
Because I am not in love with you…